Saturday, July 16, 2011

I Am Depressed and I Don't Know What to Do ( Please Help!!!! )?

I am about to enter my senior year of high school and I worked very hard for the entire 3 years so far. I have a general idea of what I want to study and where I want to go, but my parents crushed down all of my personal options. They want me to apply to a state school or the universities in my state, but I really wanted to go away for college. My mom is even brainwashing my siblings into thinking that the state schools in my area are the most perfect ideal places, but the truth is they're not. I looked into all of them and researched them, and these schools have low requirements and test scores. My mom didn't even go to college and the only reason why my dad is forcing me to apply to schools near home is because he doesn't want me to leave because he thinks I'm too young. I hate living in this dejecting environment. I really want to go out of state/country for college and I even looked schools that are out of state and country and showed them to my parents, but my dad saw the prices and he said that he won't waste the money on me because he's saving up for my 3 younger siblings. I told him I could get loans and get a job and apply for scholarships, but he said that is ridiculous. I can't stand it anymore. I hate the state I live in. I hate the people in the neighborhood I live in. My dream was to go to a university far away and focus on my studies and become successful, and make the friends of my lifetime. But, my parents won't allow me to apply to any of these schools and they said if I do they won't support me financially. Also, my parents want me to go to college close to home because they want me to live in home. Please, please, please what can I do? I really don't want to stay here anymore and I can't stand this idea my parents are imposing on me and my family. Everytime they bring it up, I become depressed and fall apart. Please help me.

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